New Year, New Me.

I've had my fair share of ups and downs this past year (2008). I'd rather not get into too many details but here's my 2008 in a nutshell. The beginning of the year was great. I was with a great guy, who wanted nothing more than to be with me...forever. Or so I thought. We'd talked about marriage on several occasions and we even talked about a good wedding date and everything. The months started to go by and before you knew it, September was here and nothing had changed or progressed. I saw myself going no where with this guy. So, I talked to him about it and told him how I felt, and instead of being very understanding and letting me know that our relationship was worth 'something' he just sat there. It was like I was talking to air. I broke it off.

I thought we'd ended things on good terms, but that's when the millions and millions after millions of text messages and phone calls started to pile up. It was ridiculous! This is when I knew I hadn't made a mistake in calling the relationship off and I was better off being single for a while, anyways. although, this break-up couldn't have happened at a worse time. We had just gotten a place together and now I was forced to go through all of our stuff on my own. We had a long distance relationship for a little over 2 years in our over a little 2 1/2 year relationship. Long distance isn't the hard part, the hard part is the equality. No one person should put more into the relationship than the other and that's very key in a long distance relationship. There's other things that add to it, don't get me wrong, but that will come at a later date.

So, here I am, all alone, and have to go though my stuff, his stuff, and the inbetween stuff and make sure everything was where it needed to be, then I needed to find a new place. It would be nice to have a fresh new start on things, have everything feel clean. But that was an even bigger headache. But thank the Lord for my friend who saved the day. She's now my roommate, and a wonderful one at that, and even though me and my ex weren't on the best of terms, he talked to a guy he knew and he owned a few houses where I'm at and BOOM! I had a place. While this rollercoaster was going up and down, I also had to make sure I made it to class every Monday and Wednesday and make sure that I made it to my two different bowling leagues on Tuesdays and Thursdays. So, really the only time I had to myself was Friday night and all day Saturday and Sunday. Let me tell you something, those were the best three days ever!! But the best part, to me, about being so busy during the weekdays, was that, I didn't have a chance to think about things. I didn't have the chance to feel the pain that he was probably feeling. Do I regret putting off the pain? Not at all. I'm glad I put a smile on my face everyday and looked to world right in the eyes, cause it's made me realize and discover so much more than I would if I had been moping around and telling everyone how much I hated life.

So, now, here I am, 3 months later, and it feels refreshing. 2008 is over! 2009 has just begun! 2009 has already been great. I didn't procrastinate at all today, and I got everything done that I needed to. I even accomplished to squeeze in a 3 mile run today. Amazing! So, here's to a new start, and to finding a new me!!