The Note That Hit Home.

I know I haven't blogged in about 2 weeks but I had a phone dilemma and then my computer ended up completely shutting down on me. Fun fun. I have my connections at work and got my computer fixed. I also had insurance on my phone and got a new phone. Yay!! So, my phone is under my ex's credit (dumb move on my part) and in order for me to activate my new phone, I needed the last 4 of his social. Yeah right!! I hadn't talked to my ex since right before Thanksgiving. So, here I was stuck and didn't know what to do. How are you supposed to get ahold of someone who hates you so much, they won't even pick up the phone? Turn out, the customer care lady understood and since she couldn't get ahold of my ex on the work phone, she tried her cell phone. It worked!! Kudos to that lady. She was a life saver. (literally, I can't do my job without having a phone, how else are they going to recall me??)

So, I finally got my phone situation figured out but then my ex kept texting me back and forth wondering why I was still on his credit. I had to explain to him that I needed the money first and that I was planning on waiting until I got my taxes filed and my tax money back. So, the only deal we could negotiate was for me to send him his DVD player, Dog tags, and Dog shot records in return for me to stay on his credit a little bit longer. Sure whatever. That's fine with me.

No, of course it couldn't go that smoothly. Turns out, my roomie and me needed the cord that runs from the TV to the cable and I knew he'd be texting me about that too. So I put $10 in his package for him to buy a new one. That's not where the problem alies. The problem was, how in the hell was he going to know what the $10 was for? So, I had to write him a freaking note. So, not only is it bad enough I'm staying on his credit and sending him packages, now I have to write a stupid note explaining myself? Gee Whiz. So, I wrote him a stupid little note to go along with the package and here in the middle of writing his stupid note, I started crying. At this point, I'm highly confused. Why on earth am I crying? This guy put me through hell most of the time, why am I crying? I hadn't cried over him this entire time and the one time I have to explain $10 I get all teary eyed. I don't know. It didn't make much sense to me, but maybe that it has finally hit me. It finally hit that I'm single and he's not coming back. I did love this guy, don't get me wrong, I just never thought that in a million years, I'd get this teary eyed over $10.

Diamond Dave.

Okay, so, there's this guy, his name's Diamond Dave and he claims to be a Ninja. In this first video you're going to watch Diamond Dave give you a deminstration of some Ninja Dos and Don'ts. My computer is acting up, so I was unable to load the videos but here are the links. There's a total of 4 videos. The first is the Dos and Don'ts of Ninjian and the last 3 are when Diamond Dave appears on the Jerry Springer Show. I hope you enjoy these as much as I did.

Video 1:
Now, Don't Go Ninjian Nobody That Don't Need Ninjian!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x2U-ZQMf56I

Video 2:
How's He Gonna Get His Lunch?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hgchm303-Hs

Video 3:
My Nun Chuck In Her Mater Can?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bf2w6Zy3DIQ

Video 4:
Honey Your Legs Are Too Long, It Looks Like You's Ridin' An Ostrich.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cd6EjAmXUPQ

I hope you enjoy these!!

"You Ain't Got Style!"

So, I have this friend and we were talking last night on the phone and according to him, we could never be more than friends. Now, as of right now, I'm not looking for a relationship with anyone so it took me by surprise when he said this but when I asked him why, it was an even more surprising answer. "We could never date," he said, " 'cause you ain't got style like me." I was completely taken by surprise and didn't know what to say so I ask him, "Could you elaborate more for me, please?" When he began speaking I just wanted to tone him out but I listened anyways. He said, "Well, 'cause when we be goin' out and stuff to clubs and stuff, I'd look to thugish and you'd look too much like a white girl!" I think that was the last straw for me.

Normally it takes a lot for me to have my straws pulled but for being a 'white girl' from St. Louis, Listen to nothing but Hip Hop most days, I took this very personally. This guy has not known me long enough to know what I would wear to a club, or even what I would wear on a day to day basis but let's just say the conversation was finished and me and him will NOT be dating in the near future, not because he says so, but because he's ignorant at even knowing anything about me. Lame.

You Don't Know Jack!

This is my dog, Jack. He's a Dachshund mix. This is Jack's story. Jack was orginally my roommate's dog, but when she saw that I was so down that my ex took our German Sheppard mix when we split, so Jack was given to me. My roommate had 2 dogs at the time and so everything just panned out just right. I went with my roommate the day that she adopted Jack from the Clovis Animal Shelter. We went there to orginally get a little fluffy puppy but she had already been adopted by the time we'd arrived. We could have just left and came back another day for a different dog but the Clovis Animal Shelter is not a 'No Kill' shelter. So, we both felt bad and that's when we saw Jack. He was very happy to see us paying attention to him. You see, when Jack wags his tail his own back end wags too, and I found that to be the cutest thing. We've had our problems with him as well, though. It's in every Dachshund's mind to be very territorial over anything they believe to be thiers. Whether it be territory, toys, or even their owners. It scared me when he first attacked my roommate's other dog who was only about 7 months old at the time, but it turns out, that's just what his breed does. I've fallen too much in love with him to give him up now. He sleeps with me and he makes sure to move over if I start kicking and pushing while I'm in bed. And don't ever allow another human being or dog come in my room cause Jack is ready to attack. I think it's safe to say that you know Jack, now!

New Year, New Me.

I've had my fair share of ups and downs this past year (2008). I'd rather not get into too many details but here's my 2008 in a nutshell. The beginning of the year was great. I was with a great guy, who wanted nothing more than to be with me...forever. Or so I thought. We'd talked about marriage on several occasions and we even talked about a good wedding date and everything. The months started to go by and before you knew it, September was here and nothing had changed or progressed. I saw myself going no where with this guy. So, I talked to him about it and told him how I felt, and instead of being very understanding and letting me know that our relationship was worth 'something' he just sat there. It was like I was talking to air. I broke it off.

I thought we'd ended things on good terms, but that's when the millions and millions after millions of text messages and phone calls started to pile up. It was ridiculous! This is when I knew I hadn't made a mistake in calling the relationship off and I was better off being single for a while, anyways. although, this break-up couldn't have happened at a worse time. We had just gotten a place together and now I was forced to go through all of our stuff on my own. We had a long distance relationship for a little over 2 years in our over a little 2 1/2 year relationship. Long distance isn't the hard part, the hard part is the equality. No one person should put more into the relationship than the other and that's very key in a long distance relationship. There's other things that add to it, don't get me wrong, but that will come at a later date.

So, here I am, all alone, and have to go though my stuff, his stuff, and the inbetween stuff and make sure everything was where it needed to be, then I needed to find a new place. It would be nice to have a fresh new start on things, have everything feel clean. But that was an even bigger headache. But thank the Lord for my friend who saved the day. She's now my roommate, and a wonderful one at that, and even though me and my ex weren't on the best of terms, he talked to a guy he knew and he owned a few houses where I'm at and BOOM! I had a place. While this rollercoaster was going up and down, I also had to make sure I made it to class every Monday and Wednesday and make sure that I made it to my two different bowling leagues on Tuesdays and Thursdays. So, really the only time I had to myself was Friday night and all day Saturday and Sunday. Let me tell you something, those were the best three days ever!! But the best part, to me, about being so busy during the weekdays, was that, I didn't have a chance to think about things. I didn't have the chance to feel the pain that he was probably feeling. Do I regret putting off the pain? Not at all. I'm glad I put a smile on my face everyday and looked to world right in the eyes, cause it's made me realize and discover so much more than I would if I had been moping around and telling everyone how much I hated life.

So, now, here I am, 3 months later, and it feels refreshing. 2008 is over! 2009 has just begun! 2009 has already been great. I didn't procrastinate at all today, and I got everything done that I needed to. I even accomplished to squeeze in a 3 mile run today. Amazing! So, here's to a new start, and to finding a new me!!